To anyone who maybe follows me, i’ll be keeping another tumblr more up to date than this one. It’s more fitness-centric.

http://ejscyence.tumblr.com

End of one journey, start of another… or something like that.

Never set your hopes up on a ship that has already sailed off. I feel stupid.

Your heart hurts… and I want to remove that hurt from your heart. You’re not worthless, and I want to show you how wonderful you are.

The sun is seemingly back, but I still miss the sunshine… ya know?

Often times when i’m nice to a girl, they tend to end up telling me that they just like me as a friend. And then they stop talking to me. It’s either that or they start to treat me like we were never cool. What’s up with that? I never even said I like you. Is it wrong for me to be nice? Should I be mean then? Can’t do it. It seems, I can’t be me. *shrugs shoulders*

“Hahaha, you know you like my dorkiness”

“Fine, i’ll admit it… just a bit… Haha”

Life is great :D

I think i’ve finally reached that point. Well, more than earlier, of course. The point where… well, the heartbreak has less and less of an effect on me as each day goes by. Each day Jehovah keeps showing me the various yet multiple gifts in life that he has so lovingly provided me. Some always there to begin with, others are completely brand new.

Sure, there are still challenges and hurdles. The occassional bouts of “oh, she left me for a better guy”… but now, i’m not full of the unrelenting pain that plagued me earlier on. It’s not completely gone, but it doesn’t phase me nearly as much as it used to. I can say with, oh, 80% certainty that i’m currently good.

I’m not quite sure what else to say other than I feel blessed. Blessed with a loving heavenly father that’s with me always. Blessed with a family that makes me laugh and smile everyday. Blessed with friends who are always by my side through it all. Blessed with… well i’ll have to update on that at a future time. But in general….

Just… blessed.

I feel worthwhile again.

To any and all that happen upon my tumblr at any given time, I do apologize for being whiny. It’s not what anyone wants to hear and I should keep it to myself. So if you do read this space… i’m so very sorry. I don’t mean that sarcastically. I really am sorry. I won’t vent here anymore.